ME FIRST

In the pursuit of being good

I have lost my best,

In the hunger for knowledge

I have ignored my rest.

I have turned into a machine

That would always help out,

Never grudge or complain

And never ever doubt.

I have lost those evenings

When children played games,

I have lost those afternoons

In the hunt for fame.

I find people around

Enjoying their lives,

I keep alone because

I can't match their vibes.

I find the world foolish

But happy from within,

Amidst all losses 

They leap and they grin.

They binge, they celebrate

They live life with joy,

I sit before the screen

And turn a nerd boy.

Although, I wasn't the same

I wished to fly when young,

But my wings have been trimmed

By duties and pressures strong.

My hobbies are dead

In the grinder of work,

I am hurt but can't say

As everyone would laugh.

I see guys of my age

Have girlfriends one or two,

I repent for being so studious

I repent for being so good.

So I thought to turn selfish

And I will definitely be,

Because that's the way to survive

As none will think for me.

I will be ignorant

Of your problems and your will,

I am not your dad's slave

I have some things to feel.

I don't care about systems

Because frustration inside is free,

Dare they stop me in my way

I will tear them and reap.

Now I want a command, of my life

Might be it right or wrong,

Now I don't care what you think

Because I know I am strong.

If Karma doesn't reward me

I will snatch it on my own,

Even if for that I have to deprive

Someone's happiness alone.

Because I know my life is short

And it takes time to judge,

So I'll do whatever I think

And from my path, I won't budge.

Bring your armies, bring your lords

Let me see who can fight,

Who can stop me on my way

On my way to the right.

I won't harm you unless you do

But unlike previous times,

I won't forgive and let you go

And will avenge it mine.

My devotions were true when I was at work

And so is true my wrath,

The better I was, the worse I can be

If you forget your accord.

I don't need weapons to wage a war

I am my own weapon,

Just do wrong with me the next time

And wait for your last dawn.

Now, I have learnt to punish the crowd

And won't ever turn back,

If you think you can do what you want

Do that in your own sack.

Because blood is getting warmer, and fire is high

And tides of my avenging thirst,

Have gather over ages just to claim,

The world comes later, me first.

- Lucifer